I'm doodling words that I wanted to say on issues that we are facing right now like pandemic and global crisis.
For me, it's time to take a pause and self reflections. I'm not the only one sitting at home, braving the silence on my own. For some people who can't sit still in these quiet moments, it drives them crazy not to have any distractions at all - shopping, dining out, travel.
Each one of us has issues within us that we need to resolve more than the global crisis.
The thought that started it all...
I was out one evening with a new found friend and we were talking about how women in their culture are aiming for marriage as a goal versus the western culture - career driven women who has "marriage" at the back burner.
Women who got married on their early stage of adulthood (25 to 30) are not also contented with family life, same with women who are at the highest peak of their careers. Humans has no contentment indeed.
We make the choice, we create our future.
The past few months has been the trying times of my faith, patience and resiliency. I moved to another country - again! with two dogs in tow. Started a new life on another city, learned new language, met new people, new experiences. And that's very admiring trait for single women - that she can do whatever she wants, wherever it is.
But single women like me also wish that there is someone that they can share all these struggles and phases of their lives. We can read lots of articles, blogs, talks from women that they hope to have partners to share a life with but give up with the idea that he doesn't exist in today's society.
Shani Silver - writer and creator of podcast "A Single Serving" talks about life of single women and how society should treat us fairly like there is something wrong with us why we're still single.
Lauren Warrell, writer and PHD who also wrote why she gave up on dating - on finding love. She didn't mean that she hates being in love, falling in love. She got sick of dating men that are not good for her.
And as for me, for those who keeps on asking "why", it's the same answer. You never know what I went through so it's nobody's business if I want to take care of myself right now.
Of course there's always loneliness, we want to feel connected. I am doing my best to create experiences and connect with people who has the same values. I use this time to savour every moment, not to rush onto the future because I will surely miss this part of my life. I'm grateful for these new experiences.
Let me know what do you when you feel so alone in your journey of life? Do you pause and doubt? Or do trust the process and look forward for the light at the end of the tunnel?
"But I will fight bolder than before
Bluer than the sky
I will fight beyond all the barriers they set down
'Cause I have covered over all the holes
And I'm ready
I'm ready for it now"
Advocate of authentic self. Lover of life. Passionate on understanding humans. Serving with a purpose, one day at a time.