We hear a lot of "Finding your Purpose" talks from speakers, churches and life coaches. They have different views and inputs, it depends where they're coming from. From someone who is coming from a higher place, a place of center and balance, it will be a different view versus from someone who memorizes "moral" and "ethics", excuse me I didn't mean to disrespect these people. We all have our experiences and for each one of us is a different journey on how we found our purpose, our calling, our life. #whatisthepurposeofyourlife
Since I discovered that I'm an empath, part of my being codependent and one of those few percentage of HSP or highly sensitive people, it's both a gift and a curse. I don't even know what to do about it. Having codependent traits that I can't stop helping people or fixing situation, seeing that as "projects" is not healthy and digging my own grave. (kidding!)
While I'm at this journey, decluttering my life, reprogramming my foundation and belief system, I'm still a work in progress. I attract new circles now with same wavelengths. I shared with them my experiences and they also want to do something with their own personal growth. We were no longer in the phase of "whining" and "ranting" but we have to dive deeper and look from within.
I had funny stories of how I sought for therapy but it's not what I was looking for. (On my other blog post).
We post photos on social media that we are doing GREAT with our lives (that's what society and social media teaches young people these days and screws us up) but we're hallow inside. Coming out and sharing my wounds, I surprisingly find people who come to me and say "I was there, I didn't know where to seek help, I was ashamed and scared of my peers judging me". They were not alone.
I used to wake up everyday like "uggh.. I'm going to work" and just want to get over it and can't wait to go home to do what I love to do. Same thing as looking forward for the weekend. Oprah shared on one of her talks about setting intention - living everyday with intention.
Why did I have to wait? Why can't I do it now? Why I had to hold back the things that I love to do? What am I waiting for?
Now, from the moment that I open my eyes, "I ask - what do you want the most?". It can be a small task of coffee and yoga or a long process of "I want to do this in 3 months or so." But it doesn't mean I always walk on straight lines, when that happens, don't be hard to yourself. It's okay to take detours, step back for a bit, think if you are setting the bar so high and restart.
It's okay if you are alone on this journey, it's okay if they find you weird and most of the time misunderstood. We are all different and unique. We have our own paths to take, we don't need to rush. Your journey is different from mine. Life is not a race not even a competition. Trust the timing of your life.
And more inspirations from her, Amy Young.
You are special. You are a caterpillar, waiting to become a beautiful butterfly.
Advocate of authentic self. Lover of life. Passionate on understanding humans. Serving with a purpose, one day at a time.