We all do have bad days, bad week or just simply not in the mood for anything. I had those down times, we all do. There were times that I feel empty, hallow, lonely or I think I'm not being productive as the days go by. We procrastinate and beating ourselves. "How can you be lazy at this time?" or the opposite "I'm just waiting for an inspiration right now" but I'm wasting away. Feeling like a failure? Worthless?
Can you trust the timing of your life right now when you are at your lowest? #selflove #iamworthy
I'm not always cheerful as you think. I have my dark moments too. I want to numb it, bury it deep down, not feeling anything at all. But when I sit with those emotions, I recognise those feelings. It could be guilt, shame from my innerchild. I replay those moments and reprogram what my inner child used to believe. (see Michelle Chelfant Reprogramming Limiting Beliefs ) The guilt or shame is a byproduct of critical parenting, in my situation, seeking for approval. I beat myself up for not doing good enough, for making the same mistakes, and for not remembering important lessons in life.
When my inner child knows it's guilt or shame that's stopping me, I try to snap out of it and come back to that one thing that makes me whole - that life is so good to me!
I'm living in the present moment where I should be thankful for everyday. I have found my path, I feel so connected from up above. And knowing that I've come this far alone, I would never exchange it for the world - my authentic self.
Advocate of authentic self. Lover of life. Passionate on understanding humans. Serving with a purpose, one day at a time.